As if this girl doesn't have a million other things to do...

...I started my newest project last night. The glitter letters. :) I have a thing for glitter, I love glitter, I love playing with glitter, & I love decroating with glitter...now does this girl like to clean up the glitter? Not. So. Much. These letters are not finished due to the long drying process then the layering of the glitter, and more drying but you get the point :)

Another D.I.Y project? Ok!

Last time I blogged about our wedding, I told you I was making napkins. I had gone to the fabric store, bought the fabric, washed, ironed, cut, then went up to Oakhurst where Candace and Talitha were going to help me sew. I have been taking pictures to track (and show) my progress. :) Step 1: wash the fabric.

Step 2: Iron. Have you ever had to iron 50 yards of fabric? Not hard, but difficult to place on the ironing board, I tell ya. Being that I am a very busy working individual, I had to iron on a Saturday morning. Killian was not very happy that on my Saturday morning, I ironed instead of playing with him. So he decided to take a stand and plop himself right onto the fabric. I think this pictures says it all! This is one the prints that I chose, the other print is slightly different.

Step 3: Cutting fabric to the desired size. Yet, not difficult but tedious. I think this took me a total of 3 hours to get 71 napkins. My lovely fiance, offered to help me while he was at work...I told him that I didn't want the guys at the station to make fun of him but in the end I took him up on his offer. (side note: how cute is it that he took a spool of the fabric so he could cut squares for me at the station?!) He got about 50 completed...do the math and 50 + 71 does not equal 150 napkins....looks like I will be buying more fabric! erggg...

(another side note: I didn't get a picture of him cutting fabric, and rather bummed out about it)

Onward we go....so after step 1, step 2, and step 3, we went up to Oakhurst for my sister's baby shower. Step 4: At this point, we began to see more progress....of course, nothing just works smoothly right? after discovering that Tal's sewing machine wasn't working, we were down to 1 sewing machine...bummer. Tal and Candace took turns sewing while I ironed (more ironing?) little creases on each side of the napkins. Let me point out again, that nothing about this project is hard, it's just long and the steps are rather tedious, but necessary.

By the way, I did manage to burn myself numerous times, but all in all it was worth it. Can you tell that I am not having fun at this point? Me=tired. We all stopped about 2 hours in...after a baby shower, glasses of wine, and El Cid, we just didn't have it in us to finish all the napkins. I think I have about 100 more to sew and about 50 more to iron plus the extra fabric that I have to purchase. I guess it's good that I have 4 months left til the wedding, huh?

But with the help of Nick, Talitha, and Candace I have gotten a lot further and feel good :) Can't wait to see the rest of the project! Stay tuned for pictures :)

Top 3 projects that I still have to complete:

1. my veil :)


2. glitter hangy letters


3. tree trunks

I'll Never Be....

pretty enough
funny enough
thin enough
liked enough
skinny enough
nice enough
happy enough
a better runner
the best employee
the best sibling
the best partner

I'll never be good enough.

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This bothers you I bet? Yep, it bothers me too.

For the past few weeks I have been focusing on trying to be more positive and learning what God's true love is and how He thinks of me, of us, as individuals.....as His children.

Much like milllions of other women (and men too) out there, we all try to work out harder, to be skinnier, to be healthier, to be more attractive, to eat the right things, to say the right things, and to do the right things. Society has placed such a strong focus on who we aren't and who we should be rather than who we are and who God has made us to be.

I often feel that women have such an insecurity about their outward appearance, and that there is a lot of pressure to be beautiful, to be rail thin, to make sure they look good for their partners 100% of the time. I hear stories from people who's partner's want them to be skinnier or prettier...you know what I want to say to those people who think that?? I don't think I need to tell you what I want to say to those people, but serisously, they need to get over themselves. What happened to loving that person with all your heart no matter what they look like? Is that completely just out of the question? I think not.

What happened to just true beauty? What happened to confidence? I hear my friends saying "I'm fat" or "I'm ugly" and it breaks my heart to hear that because I look at them and often admire them for being true, for being beautiful, and for being nice and funny and outgoing. All characteristics that God made for them. I would be lying if I said I didn't struggle with this a bit as well because I do, which is why I am trying to learn to be positive and to be comfortable in my own skin.

My wish to everyone is that we would stop trying so hard and to just.be. You are beautiful, you are loved, you are who God made you to be.

I took some verses that I believe don't need any explaining, but serve as a reminder for all of us who struggle with this. It is plain and simple, Jesus loves us, so why don't we love ourselves?

Your adornment must not be merely external--braiding the hair, and wearing gold jewelry, or putting on dresses; but let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the imperishable quality of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is precious in the sight of God. 1 Peter 3:3-4 NIV

But the goal of our instruction is love from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith. 1 Tim. 1:5 NIV